With My Back To The Sun

Going to see Múm tonight. I'm extremely excited and have been in love with their
music for years.

One particular memory stands out for me, when I think of their music. I was in San
Francisco, going to a shop that Joe and Lauren's friend ran. I remember just having
bought Múm's album "Finally we are no one" and listening to "Green grass of tunnel"
over and over, staring out the window. It was my first train ride, and I remember it
so clearly. That fleeting feeling of inspiration coursing through me, not realizing just
how temporary it was. But then, that was the beauty of it. These kind of memories are
irreplaceable, and so etched into my mind that I can still remember the smell of those
poorly upholstered seats and the subtle sway of the train over the tracks. Sometimes
the perfect picture isn't a print, but a memory. My favorite kind..

Green Grass Of Tunnel

Los Angeles

6:00 am. My head is spinning, and the woman that lives upstairs, sounds like she's tap
dancing in high heels. I can't stop thinking.

My mind is racing more than ever before.

On Planes.

This photo reminds me of how I feel when I fly. Also, reminds me that I now have
medication to help me get through this. I can't see how it will work, but it's worth a
try. I have a feeling my mind will win the fight. Drugs never win.

Jake Dow-Smith

Word game: "Yourself"

Hi, this is me. Here's a few things about me:

-I have insomnia
-I'm always tired during the day
-Barely drink coffee
-I have major anxiety when it comes to flying on planes.
-I enjoy photographs. I can spend hours just looking at
them online and around the house.
-I love film.
-I love digital
-Horror movies
-Romantic comedies
-Picking flowers
-Ramen
-Pasta
-Shabu Shabu
-Mexican food
-Taking mini-vacations
-I have headaches everyday
-I like to ice skate and drive go karts
-I hate when people tell me to smile
-I miss hawaii
-I love Los Angeles
-Rose Bowl Flea Market
-Del Taco (Guilty Pleasure)

the list can go on. Just a few things.


I have a lot of stripes and plaids and I intend to buy more. I've tried florals, but they just don't
feel right. ps- I love the color black. Even though it's not a color.


This is the lake where we were engaged. I love this place so much. Laying out in a rowboat, soaking
in the summer sun. The light spray of the water hitting the sides of the boat. I would live here if I
could.


And finally, this is Ron. My husband. I love him to death & he's my most favorite person on the
planet. My home, my heart & my best friend. I am so thankful. Words cannot describe how much
he means to me.

That's me in a nutshell. Now I need my Zzz's. G'night all.

Zzz

Sparkle | Tuesday

My sister and I did a little project in the hopes of stirring up some much needed
inspiration. She picked a word and we photographed subjects that (in our eyes)
described the word. She randomly picked the word "sparkle".

Today started off really beautiful inside of my cave. The light was streaming through
the white blinds, and I worked furiously on my projects for work. Then, right when
I decided to work on our little photography project, the sun decided to drop below
the trees in the back of our apartment building. Hmph. I'm not happy with my results.
It reminds me of a forced high school photography project.

The bottom photo is a photo of a music box that was given to me by one of our Japanese
distributors when he stayed with us back in February. It plays a cute little tune that amuses
me sometimes before bed. I know it doesn't really sparkle much, but for some reason,
every time I wind the little metal handle, the music reminds me of blue skies and sparkling
blue water. That has to count for something.

Today has been full of ups and downs. Violent ups and downs. With the beautiful day turned
gloomy, and the neighbors laughing hysterically one moment, to them screaming and crying
the next, it's hard to feel anything but somber. I hate hearing the faint sobs through the
walls that divide us. As annoying as they can possibly be, I can't help but feel sorry for
them.


Time to put on the headphones and finish more work. I hope your days are filled with much
more sun and cheer.

xx

11:38 pm

Took down the Halloween art & started taping up polaroids.


Paintings. Early morning.


The roses we picked the other day. They lasted longer than I thought.


About to take a hot bath and lay down. My back has been killing me all day. Time for
some Zzz's. Goodnight.

Polaroid Week + Tickets To Hawaii

It's Polaroid Week! I have a little film left, which will last me throughout the
week, hopefully.

Also! Got our tickets to Hawaii today, which opens up a flood of anxiety.
Um. Flying = sad face. I'm just trying not to think about that part, and
how good it's going to be to see my friends and family. I really feel ext-
remely excited to see them.

Ok. Time to make dinner. I think I'm gonna marinate chicken breasts in
a garlic herb sauce, boil some corn, and make a little rice. NOT feeling
anything that involves a drive thu right now. My body is calling for a home
cooked meal. Too much junk in the system.

Anyway. Have a great day. :)