noted

re-evaluating priorities.

tired of people not living up to the words they speak.
i can only try & give a &*$^ for so long.

-taking a little break.

During coffee

Met up with a friend from flickr today, for coffee. It was rather refreshing and
nice to sit and talk about random things. It's good to know there are still good people
out there that you can connect with.

I didn't take any photos while I was there. How ironic.

I'm really tired. Going to rest a little. Goodnight.

Lower & Lower

And just when you thought it was getting better.

You wake up feeling a surge of heaviness. Some kind of overwhelming weight
against you, like you walked into oncoming traffic. A little dramatic. A little not.

Not even sure.

I just don't feel good.

Muffins & Tea

I'm always hungry! What's wrong with me?

Late night snack. Ginger tea w/ the quote: "Sing from your heart".

Opening new doors

Was just mentioning on flickr, that I'm thinking of doing another 52 week project for myself.
I'd like to learn a lot this year and grow much more as a person. I've made a list of things i'd
like to accomplish within the coming year and also, be able to document through this little
52 week project.

52 Week Project
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-Exercise more // Running, walking, dancing. Anything cardio.
-Drive more. More freeways.
-I'd like to learn more Japanese. My husband has been trying to teach me for 3 years now, but i'd really
like to put aside time per day to really concentrate on it. Also, I want to try to visit Japan (If money, time
and sanity permits)
-Cook more! Really stressing this one here. Growing up, I've always been that girl who ate junk food
and microwaved everything. I'd just really like to be able to cook some good home cooked meals for
the husband after a long day. (I'm still very guilty of bad food. It'd be nice to change that)
-Get better at film photography. Any and all comments + criticism would be 100% welcomed. :) I need
all the help I can get.
-Shoot more weddings. I love weddings & everything about them. The tiny details that took hours, days
and months to plan, the light glittering off of the brides hair, the look on the groom's face when the bride
turns the corner and he sees her for the first time. There's just some kind of magic that sits in the air and
explodes like confetti, at every single wedding. I would love to be part of more beautiful moments.

I'm in the process of working on a site and portfolio. I'll share it with you once I can get it all together :)

and lastly:

-Think positively and not worry so much about things I can't control.

Looking forward to documenting this year. Wish me luck! Have a happy year, everyone!

Old photos + Edit edit edit.

Nothing exciting to talk about. I haven't shot any film in forever, I haven't left the house in DAYS,
we never take long drives or mini-vacations anymore. The days consist of working on photos and
the site. It looks as though, I'm making a lot of progress and am excited.

Hopefully we can take a long drive or mini-vacation soon. If I play my cards right. I have faith.

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Photos above are of my sister, back in Hawaii. Makes me miss her.

things and such

(Forgot where I got this from. If you know the source, let me know so I can credit :)

A few things about today
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-Got rid of the christmas tree. FINALLY (I know, how embarrassing. it's almost february!)
-Leftovers and pizza and seinfeld and ocd cleaning sprees
-Working on the website. (I've made progress. Yay)
-Realizing I really need new shoes. I know I can't buy any but, it would be nice. I'm still
wearing my sandals in 50 degree weather, because I don't want to wear the leather
boots every day of my life. If I could choose a shoe, it'd probably be the repettos that i've
been eyeing since last spring!!! I don't care how old they are, I still want them. Seems
like something i'd wear for years.
-Hot baths
-Facial masks
-The heater turning off and on every 2 minutes.
-Wishing it were spring
-Hating my insomnia!
-Craving Shabu Shabu
-Really wanting to test out the AE-1 but worried about processing fees.
-Wishing I could cut all my hair off (Still. Yes. STILL)

Zzz.

corsage brooches

Back from mexican food and a movie. We ended up watching "Lovely Bones", which
was a little freaky and weird. Kara is in the process of reading the book and said that
it's a lot better than the movie- it's always like that, no? I found it to be okay.
Definitely have seen worse movies. Overall though, it was a really nice night.
The only downside is that I have a massive headache (I think from the margarita) that's
pounding against the back of my eyes. Me and alcohol just don't mix anymore! I know
i've said this before but...really? One drink? Someone is sending me a sign- DON'T DRINK!

So, about these photos above:

Handmade corsage brooches by A Alicia @ All Things Original. I want one in every color!
The coral color is my very favorite, but they're all so super cute. Wah! Another thing on my
want list!

Alright, now to nurse this migraine of a headache. G'night.

Sky ghosts & lakes in July

I know I already posted today, but been working on photos all day and wanted to share
some stuff i've been working on w/ post-production. And this song is putting me in a
pretty good mood: here.

Thanks, Lauren + Joe for turning me on to Little Dragon. :)

Ps-Wish I were at Big Bear right now.

Something about garlands

These are just the cutest things. I keep meaning to set a day out of my weekend aside to make
a few of these, but something always comes up. Or maybe I'm just making excuses and the
truth is, I'm just tired. Not really sure.

Anyway, I got these pretty images from Sophie Cuvelier's blog. Check out her site here. Also,
leaving you with a song that i've been listening to lately. here.

Going to eat mexican food down the road w/ my husband's brother and his fiance, tonight. Should
be good, I'm excited to break away from working on my website, and see the world. :)

Have a nice Saturday night.

5

Insomnia. Again. This time I'm gonna try and read a book and peel myself away from the
computer screen. I really want to get out of the house tomorrow. REALLY. And possibly
eat lunch away from this little apartment. Something other than canned raviolis! A
sandwich sounds nice. Soup also sounds nice.

Time for thee attempts to be made. G'nite.

Back in summer

Going through old photos again. Came across these photos we took overlooking the
stadium, back in the summer. I miss these times. A lot less stress and pressure, if you
(some of you) know what I mean? Ugh.

Well, destruction before creation right? Hope the downward spiral comes to a halt, soon.
VERY soon. Please?

Another wedding film

ainjil + chris from joel serrato on Vimeo.

Here's another wedding video that I fell in love with. I love Joel Serrato's films, so much
emotion captured in all of them. <3

DIY

Hello, world!

I made three photoshop actions tonight. What do you think? Not sure how I feel about
them cause i've been working on them for hours. It's like working on a song or a beat
for 10 hours and thinking it's good, but waking up the next morning, disgusted.

Anyway, I better head to sleep. Just wanted to share my little DIY. :) Goodnight.

Cuteness for a Wednesday

Sarah & Rupert Wedding 16mm Film from sarahandrupert on Vimeo.

It's been pretty gloomy today. I've been sluggishly trying to edit and work on the site, while some
kind of party goes on at the pool below. Wish I was invited for cake and food. Haha.

Here's a little sunshine for the gloom. A cute wedding video, shot in 16mm film. Makes me
happy to see such happy moments caught on film.

Have a good evening. Back to the books...

Pots & Pans & Thunderstorms

Been up editing photos and working on the website ALL night. Now it's getting bright out,
the neighbors are banging around pots and pans right through the walls, and there's a
thunderstorm brewing outside.

I'm gonna go to sleep, but wanted to leave you with this photo. Took this a while back
when my sister was visiting us. Back when the weather was nice and toasty. It was a
fun day, I sometimes wish I could turn back time. Sometimes.

Alright. Wish me luck w/ trying to sleep. Goodnight. Again.

Zzz.

History cannot ignore

I'm up again, editing. Just watched the new celebrity rehab and it made me feel weird and oddly
awake.

Here are some photos I found of our visit to San Francisco, last year during Thanksgiving. I had to
add the 5th photo from the top, just cause of the fog rolling around the cliffs. There's just
something magical about the bay. It never ceases to make me feel so many emotions all at the
same time.

"San Francisco morning coming clear and cold. Don't know if I'm waking or I'm dreaming"-Bill Withers.

Freedom of thought.

Had a good Sunday! First went and picked up a book that I helped Ron make. It came out pretty nice.
The book title is "Freedom"- all of the images are in one way or another, suppose to evoke a sense of it.
Hopefully you can feel the same when you look at them?

This song plays in my head when I think of being free.
Oh my god, and can I please play a piano like that!?

After picking up the book, we went and ate a late lunch at Curry House in Little Tokyo. I finally got
to have the Menchi Katsu and cruise the aisles of the Japanese bookstore. I also found Japanese
packing tape!!!! Been looking everywhere and refused to pay shipping. It was well worth the wait.
They came in a pack w/ all of my favorite colors.

THEN.

THEN.

THEN.

Ron asked me to drive home. There were so many people on the road tonight. I took a weird turn
and ended up in Chinatown, at a really &$^#*@ up intersection. My heart was beating out of my
chest. I made it out alive though, and so did the pedestrians, thank god. The 110 freeway is seriously
insane. It felt like I was playing daytona, only with real lives. Stopped at Pavillions for some food
and came home to watch T.V and listen to music. So here I am, tired as always.


"I know but one freedom and that is the freedom of the mind"-Antoine De Saint-Exupery

Hello Pola

Just got back from the Polaroid show. It was a quick one. Got there and stood in a CRAAAAZY
line. People playing dirty, cutting in line, stepping on feet. It was a little brutal. Finally got in,
and they were serving free booze. Got a wine but didn't drink it all, I guess I'm getting old. Alcohol
just doesn't appeal to me much anymore, it's really weird. Maybe I'm just tired of getting sick from it.

The display was pretty awesome. over 1500 polaroids across the gallery. Ron and I found mine, and
I took a photo in front of it, even though it's so blurry you can't tell what it is. It's the one
I took of Huntington pier. There were 3 others of mine up on the wall. Not sure if I missed any but
am so happy to see them up. It was a great little feeling inside. Kinda reminds me of the feeling
i'd get on the way to my elementary school birthday parties at Castle Park (theme park), or riding on
that little tram from disneyland parking lot to disneyland. Haha. Cheesy, I know.

After we looked at all the other Polaroids, we listened to the band a while and left. It was SOOOOOO
crowded in/out there! Mad house. So, now we're home and I'm thinking about chicken noodle soup
and perrier. What a nice day and night, it's gonna feel nice to take a warm bath, relax in my pajamas
and watch a movie.

Hope everyone is having a good saturday. Goodnight, time for sleep. Zzz.

Ps-You don't realize how old you're getting until you see photos of yourself close up. Age at its
best at 30 years old. C'est la vie.